Of course, it's the wee hours of the morning and I'm up, writing, receiving, and praying (not in that order cause writing is last). I was actually sleeping, or, better yet, on my way back to sleep, when a phone rang out. Someone needed help. As I silently prayed, many visions popped in my head. As I inquired to God what I should do, I found myself lingering on two things: the dream I was in before my bathroom wake up call and the next piece of this bite size.
You see, all month I've been waiting on a word from God about it. It's not one that I could easily write on so it had to come from Him. I've contemplated writing without Him but never made it further than contemplating. Most times these scriptures are tied to a lesson, an example, a metaphor...something and I had nothing.
So as I recalled where I left off in the dream and how I felt, I remembered a small part of this bite size: (paraphrased) they will look for you but won't find you.
Before bed, my daughter and I were watching a movie about a young girl who grew up very wealthy in a small town in New Mexico. She'd been acting and singing all her life but she wanted to make it big in New York.
Fast forward...she'd finally made it to the stage but it was her dog the casting crew wanted, not her. So she decided to live through her dog until she made it. We didn't finish it, but we'd seen it before so I knew she'd take the led and be the star she wanted to be.
My dream was similar to that. A huge production was being put on. Everyone auditioned and got their parts. It's now rehearsal time and my leading lady...a lovely girl who may have just been me...hmmmm....was doing a scene where she needed to be more realistic as she rehearsed a scene.
Fade in...she's leaning out the windowsill. A hurricane is coming and she needed to show real fear. The kind you only feel when you've been through a category 5 or 6 hurricane. And she tried. Over and over. Several times. But each time, she was told it wasn't 'real' enough. I recalled standing over the scene thinking, I don't now this fear. In reality, I've never experienced that level of a hurricane.
I laugh now because I find myself always in a dream or vision pondering things consciously, as if I'm not in the dream or vision. It's super cool but I find it makes me lose track of what I'm supposed to get out of the dream or vision. But any who...
I woke up, ran to the bathroom and all I'm thinking about was 'Why was I 'standing' over this dream trying to figure out why I couldn't dream that type of fear into my dream character'. I began to doze back off when the phone rings. At this hour, someone needs something that will call one of us to get out of bed. It wasn't so bad, but bad enough that I did not go back to sleep. Instead, I rebuked am immediate foul smell and began the receiving part of my night.
Eventually I landed back on this dream and began to see a hurricane...that didn't exist. I guess by this time it's a vision cause I'm wide awake but not really here. But as I look out, I again tried to come up with a fear that most would feel as a hurricane came. And I couldn't. So I wondered....
I have seen the wicked in great power, and spreading himself like a green bay tree. Yet he passed away, and, lo, he was not: yea, I sought him, but he could not be found. Psalms 37:35-36 KJV
Sometimes fear wants to overtake us. Sometimes it wants to be the lead in our lives. But with practice,yes practice, we can remove the fear and not even be able to find it.
Have you ever felt gripped with such strong anxiety over something that you forget to pray? I have! During these times, I find the fear became a 'great power' but in its desire to lead, it spread itself thin and 'passed away'. Like I was looking for fear in my dream/vision, lately I find that I look out during a situation and I cannot find the fear I 'should' have during a crisis.
Even tonight, I didn't find fear, I found traces of mostly anger that someone was irresponsible and we had to be called. I smelled a foul smell almost immediately, as I mentioned before. But a quiet 'the blood of Jesus' expelled that. And then I saw the root cause of the call and felt anger but no fear. And as my mind lingered in anger mode, then the fear came. What if...? What if...? What if...?
I'm almost laughing now cause I didn't catch it right away. And it's only after the reason of the call was confirmed and resolved that I realized the fear crept in, even though I knew the root cause almost immediately. In my state of 'how can people be so...' fear crept in. I opened the door wide. I was headed straight to the 'sin not' of the verse 'anger but sin not' (Ephesians 4:26).
But you know, receiving confirmation of God's insights to you through Holy Spirit is enough to learn to dispel and repel fear permanently
Fear is not a Fruit of the Spirit. It's not of God. When it comes, we need to cast it out of our broadway play. We need to be able to look out the window as I did in my vision, expecting to find fear in the hurricane, and find only peace. Peace is our portion. Peace in any storm.
We may be going through much today, but know that fear is not of God. Where there is fear, there is no faith.
Can two walk together, except they be agreed? Amos 3:3
No they cannot and fear and faith are on two ends of the spectrum. Whatever you are going though, choose faith. It's your broadway showcase. Let faith be the lead and cast fear out.
Keiyia JOYet George
Psalms 37 Series
Part 1 - Evildoers
Part 2 - Do Good
Part 3 - Heart's Desire
Part 4 - The Son Will Rise and Shine For You
Part 5 - REST
Part 6 - Soar Like an Eagle
Part 7 - Seek the Kingdom
Part 8 - It's Not Your Fight
Part 9 - You Will Reap It All
Part 10 - He Got You
Part 11 - Give It Up
Part 12 - Delighted
Part 13 - The Righteous
Part 14 - More Than a Conqueror
Part 15 - Renewed
Part 16 - Cornerstone